OHMYBITCH

Exactly a year ago, I was so sure that I wouldn’t doubt who my friends were. I knew every single one of them and where they stood in my life. A year later, I’m cast into doubt, because they seem to look straight past me, past whatever we’ve been through together, to be with their new friends.

It’s heartbreaking, cause now I sit and wonder where I’ve gone wrong. I also ask myself who would be there if something major did happen in my life. I suppose in a way, I’m still very Americanized; I still feel that your friends pretty much remain the same after graduating from high school.

I’m happy for them, I really am, but deep down, I wonder whether it’s wrong that I feel so close to them, when we hardly meet anymore.

I know that when I enter University, I would want my bunch of friends. I also know that it means that my current friends would start bitching about me, about how I used to complain that we hardly meet and now I’m being just as bad. My answer: they now know I felt when they walked out of my life.

I’m up to my neck in family problems, and the only one who hasn’t started judging me is only N and S. Even so, they’re busy and I can’t bring myself to always meet them.

It’s time to be an ultimate introvert.